Its been a little while since ive wrote my last journal....well....tonight was hell...well should i say last night. I was talking to my boyfriend on skype (just typing) and out of no were he asked.....would you ever cheat on me? and i was like OMG NO!....but it was so random so i asked him what it was about...and he started naming some guys name and i was like who? O.o and he kept telling me and what not....and he made it sound like i was talking to this guy and how i was talking about "hooking" up with him and what not......i quickly told jeremy that i was never on my yahoo account and that i was only talking to him and checking my fish on facebook. So jeremy didn't believe me that i wasn't actually on there so i was freaking out cuz he started getting all short with me and what not...and i was getting so scared that he would dumped me over something like that...like he REALLY didn't believe me.......so after sobing for a good little bit...i told me roommate why i was crying and he called him and left a voice mail and told him that he really needed to call me and that i was actually telling the truth. Jeremy finally called me and was very quiet on the phone...after a good little bit of telling him that i would never do such a thing he seemed like he was believing me (thank god) and what not...he was like...do you really love me.....UH DUH!! I love him soo much...the most i have ever felt for anyone....he's actually someone that i wanna spend my life with....and same for him....

Well after i wrote him a letter of thanking him for believing me...he said that he still needs to think about it..and that he honestly thinks that im not happy....im just sooo scared that he is going to break up with me....he can't..i don't know what i would do....jeremy is great..the one...you just know....and baring the fact to lose him......i just can't


What should i do?
I wanna prove to him that i am soo happy with him..and that i love him and would never do such a thing to him.